Saturday, November 06, 2004

I dunno wad am i doing... I dun think i am studying for exam... maybe it is becos i have studied hard for prelims... I SHOULD BE STUDYING.... sigh... a few more exams and i will be free...

I dunno wad am i doing... suddenly... i dun dare to dream... i dun to think abt the future of the band... the vision in front of me suddenly blurred... maybe i shouldn't have listen... maybe i should be ignorant about it... I feel so helpless... sigh... I can't help... if that day ever arrive... I will cry... i definitely will... sigh... I can't look forward anymore... the tot of makes me want to cry... i have been holding back my tears... i am depressed...

Also another problem... maybe it is my fault... i dunno wad to do... i am bombard with problems... problems awaiting for me to solve... there are times where i want to give up... my passion is dying out... looking at wad i will be getting after all the hard work... it hurts alot... IS IT WORTH IT... issit worth my time.. my effort... to do something... not for myself... and knowing the outcome will be negative... I trusted them... I have confidence in them... but... i am consistently hurt... hurt by the problems they give... hurt about wad feedback they give me... hey ppl where is ur passion... wad happen to the good old days... seriously... I have high hopes for you ppl... but I need your support... your co-operation... Dun make me lose my passion... my flame will be dying out... dun make me walk out of you people... dun force me to walk down tat plank...

I dunno... maybe I will try this holiday to work out something... I will put in all my effort since I promised ms lee, she is waiting for my help... if i cannot do anything to change it.... we'll see how... i might throw in the towel... seriously...i dun dare to dream anymore...sigh... few more days... will i be happy as i was... sigh... losing my cheerful self... GOD HELP ME...

'Someone who will be losing hopes in her life... losing her strength... losing her passion which kept her alive... she doesn't know how long she can handle it... she may appear strong...always motivating them, putting a cheerful front, but the dagger tat consistently piercing through her heart... is weakening her... someone help her... please'

I'm sorry if i am being negative... cos i am unsure... i can't carry on....

*Pcss Band
*MeLissA[Cousin]
*EzaLiNe
*HuiWen
*Ng Xinyi
*RoNia
*SAndrA
*SZe SiNg
*SopHian
*ChOOn wEi[Band]
*CriStaBel[Band]
*JoAnnA[Band]
*JesSicA[Band]
*KeLly[Band]
*NinA[Band]
*PeiJun[Band]
*WanLing[Band]
*WeiHsin[Band]
*WinnieFer[Band]
*ZiyAng[Band]
*Goh YiMei[NCO Fren]
*Wei Liang[SRJC Fren]
*Yi Ling[SRJC Fren]
*Joline[SRJC Fren]
*Irene Pua[SWS Fren]