Sunday, May 01, 2005

I am so stressed up... i feel like screaming... issit that hard to organise a gathering.. give simple instructions?... so angry.. i nearly blowed up while talking to them... they are not paying attention to what i said... good thing i am not talking to them face to face... i was fuming with anger in front of my com... i am so stressed up...

i am still thinking whether to join in the concert... though i told them i will be joining.. howeva if they want me to play full concert...i dun think i can do it.. i brought home 4 scores to practice.. angry with myself... why my skill so low... played that instrument for like 4 years and yet i am still that lousy... angry with myself... though i practice... practice and practice... but i dunno whether i am doing it correctly or not... today they say we can join in for esplanade concert... i want to join in.. but.. again i am afraid i cannot catch up... with my skill... haiz... looks like i got to give it a miss... abit stressed up playing with band A... guess i will be more stressed up playing with the main band... haiz..i really dunno wad to do...

tonight..i am pissed off.. and blaming myself... sigh sigh sigh.... didn't sleep well too.. had a headache... haiz haiz haiz... hopefully the china trip can cheer me up... nitez

*Pcss Band
*MeLissA[Cousin]
*EzaLiNe
*HuiWen
*Ng Xinyi
*RoNia
*SAndrA
*SZe SiNg
*SopHian
*ChOOn wEi[Band]
*CriStaBel[Band]
*JoAnnA[Band]
*JesSicA[Band]
*KeLly[Band]
*NinA[Band]
*PeiJun[Band]
*WanLing[Band]
*WeiHsin[Band]
*WinnieFer[Band]
*ZiyAng[Band]
*Goh YiMei[NCO Fren]
*Wei Liang[SRJC Fren]
*Yi Ling[SRJC Fren]
*Joline[SRJC Fren]
*Irene Pua[SWS Fren]