Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Yupz.. bloggin again..haha.. i think i use my laptop too often till all the stickers wanna drop off liao.. nvm.. as long as the laptop is working well.. who needs those stickers... nx time i put doraemon stickers. wahah.. kidding

i'll skip the part on wad i do today.. just wanna blog out some thoughts.. yup yup sometimes i wonder who reads it... wahah.. blog is free for all to visit.. if ya want to leave a mark ya here.. just tag the board.. haha..if cannot post.. try and try again.. haha.. sorry arh.. wait till i find a better tag.. but if ya dun want.. nvm.. i understand the terms of conditions of having a blog.. haha.. therefore.. you only get to know some stuff and how i feel abt it.. but not the 100% of wads happening

firstly.. i wanna say sorry to PJ. sorry, i sort of lose control over msn... seeing the situation like that... i cannot help but just keep typing all my 'bu man' ... 3 quarter of the band is not aware of the situation lor... i put my heart in the band... seeing it become liketat... i am really very heartbroken..PJ, it is not your fault.. you just take over not long.. you can't change them straight away.. it is the whole band attitude... haiz... hopefully we can get a sign soon on how to solve it.

well... tis is week 5!... 2 more weeks.. then mid-break.. for one week.. a.k.a Study break.
yupz.. just made up my mind... i hvnt sit in and play with the band(peicai) for quite long liao... hhmm.. maybe i should do tat on tat week. just play with them, hehee..i am prepared to accept critism... i know sure will kena shoot de.. cos i am not perfect..but i will accept my mistake and change it. thats the way to learn.. but must avoid making the same old mistake la..

hhmm.. pj said i got courage, got confidence and i believe myself... hhmm.. true.. i am liketat becos of the influence i am getting.. got ppl believe in me, ppl got confidence in me, ppl give me the courage to dare to dream. i dun want to disappoint them.. and the more i dun wish to disappoint myself... "if i cannot accept how can others accept it" familiar phrase pj?...

i still remember the youth band concert... one week before the concert.. i was still struggling to figure out my parts... then one day i really got damn nervous.. i nearly broke down.. dun wanna play... luckily i pulled myself up... i actually locked myself in a room... a workshop..in jurong.. haha.. my father office... away from the comfort of my home... i sat in there for 3 whole hours... i look through the scores... i took out my pencil and start writting ABCs.. whaha.. i know it is wrong.. but i got not enough time.. after figuring out the notes (sight reading slow)... i figure out the rhythm... then i try playing... practice and pracitce... finally i managed! at nite practice with the whole band.. i try to fit my parts in.. listen to cues... though i cannot play 100% and it doesn't really sound good... but i am happy i tried and somehow managed to figure out most parts... i was quite proud of myself then... proud of my determination.

i remember i said tis to my cousin yesterday.. sorry.. but really lor.. you dun want to do your work is your problem.. you want to fail you go ahead... you dun come and influence me... i have targets in life... i got goals to work too... though i might not achieve it.. but at least i know i done my best.. it is not due to laziness of not doing my work that i cannot achieve it... at least i tried and the chance is there!..
i am not tat easy to be influence de hor... certain ppl create great impact in my life... certain ppl better dun try to change me... why should i listen to you... evil intention dun try to come near me...
haha.. trying to practice self-control now.. got a lot of ppl trust me.. esp my parents therefore i cannot disappoint them. i cannot be perfect.. but at least i dun let them worry abt me...

whoeva is good to me i will know de... whoeva is trying to help me.. i will also know de.. whoeva loves me.. i also know de.. i might not say it out.. but i will not forget... and will definitely repay them double and will protect them... haha.. yin shui shi yan... will never forget who are the people who shaped me... you have left a mark in my life.

some might have goosebumps now... most of my entries are mushy.. should get used to it.. haha cos i typed them when my heart fells heavy and i need to lighten it abit.. yupz! if cannot take it.. i suggest ya stop visiting here..

alrite.. nitez all

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