Friday, July 22, 2005

Yeah.. its the common test week... no lesson.. just have to report to school for 3 days and only for 1 and a half hour.. and the rest of the week is a break! yeap.. i think i screwed up one paper.. but the other 2 are fine...

went for recruit practice on monday... saw something that shocked me... the children are left to do their work for 2 hours.. in between their work gets mark... no one is guiding them... some are left puzzling why are they wrong... well.. i sat in and helped a few who asked for help... then they were sent out to play their instrument with their seniors guiding them... now.. something is so wrong...

cleaned my room on wednesday... hehee.. dust free.. but i'm sure it will accumulate soon... packed my clothes and stuff... jess commented i got so many toys and bears.. ask me to give away during the orphange visit.. haha..i'll see how.. can't bear to give my stff away... it is not alot also mah... just 3 cupboards of it.. :P.

haha.. i'm starting to like the library.. especially my sch library... i will stroll around to look at books and borrowing those that caught my attention.. haha... like the atmosphere... not too quiet and not too noisy... yeap... great library.. hehe... especially the tv area... some mornings i'll be there sleeping... while waiting for my class to start :P.

i did a test about jealousy.. here issit

Jealousy Level: 55%
You are a jealous person but you try not to let it show

You often get very jealous of others but you are successful at controlling your emotions publicly. When you feel that other people are winning things that you deserve, you get very upset, but you won't hurt anybody else by making a scene. Your jealousy is private. You might, for example, cry yourself to sleep at night when you get really jealous of someone.

it is kinda true... i may get hurt... stuff i worked hard for.. but i never get it and it went to others... some things i really feel i deserve it... but nobody noticed... in my heart.. i maybe weeping... but i will not show out... its my problem... and not others...

sometimes it is hard to hide my emotions... it is physically and mentally torturing... hving to put up a false front and trying to stop thinking about it... it hurts more when i could not let my heart go and cry it out...

there are other problems bottling up again... and tis will take a long time to clear... as time goes by, the truth will reveal... i'll sit and watch... opinion not asked.. i'll not say... but if you want my trueful opinion.. i'll say wadeva i know... wadeva i felt... but dun blame me for it maybe ugly.. it is afterall my opinion...

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